TELLING IT LIKE IT IS. /take it easy mike money, nobody needs and wants you, but you will come again one day. upsawh./

upsawh. the fact: i don't get by in serbia

the fact #2: there are two groups of peeple that interact with me/following or passing by me around on daily basis: mainly, the grounds for these events are the means of public transportation where there is always a chance for eye to an eye contact, for a touch and more, namely, they are

i. those that are provoking me, and

ii. the onlookers,
iii. i don't have supporters in serbian public transportation. it really sucks to be a friend of mine in serbia.
[they are pushing me around/../]

iv. there are millions of cafes and restaurants in this city but there an't one place where i can sit down and relax knowing there won't be any hooligans/anarchists-turned-waiters or anyone capable of messing up my drinks etc. which also means i an't having too many friends around here that would know some half decent places where one can sit down and relax not thinking about how will he or she die soon thereafter. i am going to have a seat only if it [the event] is important enough and have a glass of water just like today when i had a seat in "love" on the boulevard, had water, but got herpes and strange feeling in the system, heavy kidney dullsome tightness and light frontal abdominal dullsome pains. i an't LITTLE untrusty, there were no flower pots around, i couldn't spill it, had to drink it. i felt hot even though i sort of chosen the place for it looks but when entered waiter started making loud noises and it was too late to back up so i had water in perhaps a dirty glass at least. [God gave me that.] even in macdonald's i cannot be sure my food won't be tampered with. like today i took zorba sandwich at banovo brdo mac and after a few bites into it i found some yellowish silly looking stuff which was supposed to be chicken dressing on beef. it is not yakety-yuck, i wonder more was it something else on purpose as i waited some minutes for a guy to deliver. thus not even in macdonalds i like men food handlers. i like girls better cos they seem like more aptable to this society (and worried about their jobs) which does not have working laws that protect consumers. i mean i was forced to write dirt on serbia, i was picked and chosen. like through the exhaust valve, on this blog i was only mirroring feedbacks experienced throughout my serbian whereabouts. who knows who and why may take it personally and come up to me with intent to hurt me, i would not mind frontal approach but i am sort of worried about the unsuspected attack from behind (thinking about sarajevo assassination) and usually serbs attack in groups, straight up, when i see one serb approaching me i am not afraid and worried a lot even if the attack is without a warning though. most of the time, i am expecting they will kick me and if it is an older, disturbed guy i am worried how would i come clean after defending myself and breaking his jaw for example. older guys can still deliver a blow, but what can i do after that, take it and be cool with it, or strike back and break him off. i wonder with these looks on the guys when will it happen not will it happen. on several occasions serbian mafia (driving in packs in AUDIs and Cayenne jeeps) or serbian mafia dressed like guys (walking around skadarlija and elsewhere), individually or in packs, were pointing finger pistols at me, spitting, talking targeted shit, agitating with manmade noises and provoking in other unforeseeable ways. i try to stay away from trouble and avoid the conflict but it is getting harder and harder esp. with the younger population looking for a trouble which don't have any restraints and they are acting up on hate, not that i am not likeable but it's the hate buzz running around about me. i am also saying there are no laws in serbia that will prevent someone from tampering drinks or attacking someone. shit happens even in united states, i read some black waiters spat into the white cop's drinks in pittsburgh i remember. thus - even in united states. i know their laws an't solid in application, but at least they exist and someone may act upon them and do something, but after what had happened to me there, with my family i come to think perhaps it is better to have no laws than putting smokes up people's ass. it all started when america gave the green light and said the hunt was on. indeed, money rules here and there. if you got money you smile for you can make the justice works, otherwise, you are a dead meat, collateral, fluff, a walking zombie waiting for departure, whatever. jealousy?>: they wanna put me down crowning me with epithets, now i am the king: get off of me psychos, or respect, if nothing else. i am not flying high i am down to earth, smooching and lying down as low as i can. when i came to cottman ave recruiting center to become a texas ranger i wanted to raise money for my education and promote my adventurous spirit not betray serbia as is the point with those stirring up the unsuspecting serbian folk with baseless claims or worse ...traitor, traitor... trying now too hard to find a way preventing you from kicking me around ugly

I OPET PRVI . POTVRDJENO

IF I DID NOT HAVE A NEG. FEEDBACK FROM MY SERBIAN HABITAT (7 SQ. MILES) I'D PUT MORE ON NOVAK AND GET MORE, THIS SUCKS BIG TIME

a ship without a captain

this amount of hatred i have to bear with i have not witnessed in years, i guess most of them are jealous now of how did i get 5000din to bid on my favorite guy?by the way, i have not seen so many new cars anywhere in the USA as i can see in belgrade and i am not jealous of 80% of serbia for driving their new cars and for 95% of serbia having undisturbed sexual life. i do not know what to fuck is or feels like. serbs fuck around, i hear screams and moans as i am passing by [windows and elsewhere]. they kiss in large numbers. guys drop off girls that are someone else's wives and girfriends, one has to see to believe it. the girls, they try to hide from me if they know me. a guy can have girls in serbia. i've got nun. I'M THE MARKED MAN AROUND HERE. MY TAG DON'T CARRY A PRICE ON IT, THAT I CAN BUY MYSELF AND/OR MY OWN WELL-KNOWN DESTINY OFF. by contrast, take a look at this government flag on the electric hub station 500 yards away from my house. electric bills have to be paid, but where is that money going to? as if those in charge do not have enough pussies per week (no pun intented, do not even know who they are but what are they thinking about) and they are passing by this sorry flag every day. this an't possible in america. in america not even a bill clinton (the indefinite a) or the most ..... mormon cannot thread more than seven squaws in one week. i repeat i have not had a half decent blowkiss girfriend - let alone physical contact - since i do not know when and even though i am pretty disappointed OF MY TAG, the serbs are still jealous of me. jealousy comes to the table when you think someone is behind or on the par and all of a sudden you see that person has achieved some insignificant success. you are still ahead of that person a million years but you still cannot take a peanut success of that person [me]. however - no - serbs want to know where did i get 5000din from to spend on novak? even if i had i would not give much more on djokovic, i don't gamble, even though in my opinion he is the tennis messiah as far as i am concerned.

i saw her today. (and went into the mother's cunt)

26th of june, belgrade, around 3 o'clock PM; bus station near the main city railway station taking busses mainly to banovo brdo. long untied blond hair, several bags. face of an angel, could be. long black tights and one tennis racquet with a worn out blue overgrip sticking out from bag. reebok sneakers i think. i thought how wonderful it would be to offer her my calling card and have one game with her later. a wonderful prospective friend perspective. and then i looked around and saw at least five enemy looks on the faces of serbian bystanders. my confidence went serbian. as far as i am concerned, the looks and acts here dictate destinies. and so my life goes straight into the mother's cunt as they say in serbia, again and again (that repeats). and, then i saw her again as i was coming down banovo brdo hill several hours later around 18:30 on the same day. she was accompanied by the guy who had red and white supercombi tennis bag. i could not believe how the timing was no coincidence and perfect. i immy thought, come off at the first station and run up the hill. oh well, that's serbia the l,and of the fairies. sorry lord, missing my chances but it an't my fault.

this post is all about drumming up support to see her again /straight dummin', hope not.

They wanted to make a precedent example out of myself. And it worked fine with the likes of shitcleaners, mortuary hairdressers, and those in uniforms that are in fact those I had the most trouble with, but with an intellectual crowd it just showed what shit that country really is. I lost confidence in people when the FBI agent or whoever the fuck that was who was arresting me tore up my lawyer's calling card in front of me. That image stuck in my mind. America is the country that brags about all sorts of freedoms and other crap but what happened to me and what is happening to me just shows the kind of crap that country really is about. I used to laugh, I used to communicate to people, make jokes all of the time, instead right now I am on unnecessary defensive and my communicado life is nothing but ruined. the best i can do is blow a kiss to an unknown likeable female standing 50 feet away. someone who runs/ran america needed that.

this also means constant fear. on 30.06 as i was waiting for bbq-ed cevapcici in agropapuk's meat store near kalenic market in belgrade a meat guy took his tongs inside the backroom and possibly lubricate them with some menace. i'd rather think he dipped them into a toilet seat than anything else. what poison it could had been? this all after my serbian friend intentionally left verbal comments about the serbs in the store - he knows i strongly dislike such things in public and does them on purpose to upset me. the meat guy spent some 1/4 kilo of cayenne pepper on his cevapcici which he finally threw into a trashcan and i ate mine to some bile pains. suffice it to say, this is all america's fault. my death and anything prior to it

CROATS, SORRY FOR THE SERBIAN CRIMES

day in, day out, year in, year out, some serbian stupid face comes to stand guard behind me, a foot, approximately a foot and a half away and makes some noises, trying to provoke me into violence. just like today did some squareheaded boy, 80 kilos of pure serbian stupidity, twenty some years old as i was packing some groceries in the maxi store (around 16:45) in vojvode stepe str. he quickly ran around registers came up to me, stood just near and started making some noises a foot behind! man, i felt like blowing his fucking serbian head off cos that is what repeats very often to me but then again thought about all of the time spent in prison for nothing for the same fucking reasons earlier. it is obvious that they want something from me. i feel sorry for the croats, they had to put up with the serbs for centuries and no wonder they hate them like crazy. i stem from here but the thing i hate most is provoking someone for no reason and that's what the serbs are doing to me. free provocation is serbian agenda. it is their problem and point and i have no clue what are they trying to achieve with this. sorry croats, albanians and bosnians altogether. i got the same feelings like you guys. serbian leaders are full of shit for they should know about this, and they are probably allowing them or even shooing them into it. i have no idea but to guess what's behind. first thing that comes to my mind is the prime minister djinidjic's murder. it was obivous to me that i was sent as some sort of an american decoy just days ahead of the murder. americans had written me off a long time ago and i know that these provocations started there. at that time i was the legitimate serbian target. serbs are stupid enough to crib american wrongdoings and ignorance cos americans are the biggest racists in the world. so i believe those that are making noises specially for me are linked to the pm's killers. it could be my imaginations as well but it is my best guess. there is an army of those fucking serbs following me around and messing up my life. what i am trying to describe could probably be seen on the security camera of the maxi store and since this piece of shit was recently overtaken by danish or norwegian company (acquisition) the managers should know better than that, they should warn these motherfucking serbian shit that they cannot do what they are doing. i need to have a space to breathe and someone is telling them not to allow me. i would kill all those political serbian leaders that are pushing them onto me. this is not a game or laughing matter anymore, this is a serious thing. my biggest mistake of the lifetime was going to fucking america where the problem started. i'd been million times better off finishing law school as i started and being the lawyer among these motherfucking stupid serbs. back to the topic; i am talking maxi security guys should prevent any potential conflicting situations so i do not have to take pictures with my mobile phone camera of the perpetrators that are following me around and messing up my life. but it is not only maxi, they are everyhwere i go. i hope international judges devastate serbian sport teams with their calls. that is what they deserve, ignorance for the serbian people. i'd like them to assign each devastating rulling in their serbian heads to me. fight menace with menace.

It just shows how powerful CIA is. Applying Divide and Rule policy herewith they made my own nation hate me and me hate my own nation. It is pretty amazing.

Ships Ahoy!!! When Justice Cometh Upon the Earth

I kept my mouth shut for eight years in fear that the Italian Mafia will rape my ex wife and what not, in fear of another ITalian revenge, but now that she got married to someone else I do not care anymore, Fuck you Gary Barbera. Come to Serbia you Slimy Italian Bitch.

I am not saying all Serbs are monkeys but surely some are into monkey business when I am concerned. In addition, some cheap bitch Serbian Belgrade city skunks are trying to adhere to me, just this stinky scum would only benefit from undeserved popularity if I'd complain about the flavor when they are around. If shunning works for the Amish, it'd work for me too. There is only one guy more popular than me in this country, and it is Novak Djokovic. I would not be able to hide myself here even if I wore wigs and camo clothes like Ana Ivanovic. I recognize many stars around here as I am roaming around the streets of Belgrade. The stars are all invincible, limed and watered down with nothingness. Pure boredom. I do not want to be a star. However, Novak is on the other side of the spectrum, on the other hand, I am despised. Popular and negative popularity altogether. However, he is the only one I can look up to as well, friends excepted. Noone else. There is not such a person in America. I used to believe that some were better than others, for example, Robert de Niro and Bruce Springsteen. But, after what Americans had done to me, I think all of them are worthless idols, there is not an honest to goodness decent person there one can look up to. It's all a monster joke cos what they did to me was monstrous. When they kicked me out, they did me a fucking favor. What bothers me is that they ruined my love, relationship and family in the process. That cannot be repaired. From all sides of that fucking country I was hated. Philadelphian Mafia sniped me when I said something about Gary Barbera's mother. Gary must had been the boss himself or related by blood. Gary Barbera is Chairman of the Pennsylvania State Board of Vehicle Manufacturers, Dealers and Salespersons.About a year ago, the FBI, Alcohol, Firearms and Tobacco Agency spent some time removing boxes and boxes of files from his Dealership. Nevertheless, I think at the time I was arrested he and his clan buddies (Cosa Nostra, the Italian Family) ruled Philadelphia. Someone from his Barbera dealership stole or lost my hubcaps and instead of returning them to me, his kapo showed no respect so I said what I said. I said something bad about his mother. Jersey Mafia, fucking Italians, is in cahoots with City Administration, Street and Rendell, Black and White Jews, they are like this. They rule. I have no doubts FBI helped them set in motion a campaign on me. It was not a slap in the face as they sold it to Serbs. Inshallah, the most precious boon is when you are attacked and provoked undeservedly. Somehow I feel I will never meetagain those that do. They pass by and army of those that follow comes up next. Such is the way of the Lord. I am not here to judge people, I do know that the great injustice was done unto me. Everything was taken away. There is no way I can have love and days like I used to have again. I'd like to know what happened to those that did it to me. The judge, is he still judging? I wonder what God ruled after Mr. Honeyman and others did not rule in my favor. They forgave even those that were dealing drugs, but they could not forgive me as well as the Hitler Henchmen. What a company on both sides.

master jewish conspiracy - game over

Above: Image of my painting titled Religion from 2009.
One schmaltzy copycat; his name is Borko Petrovic, MFA from Belgrade; stole the subject from me in 2010 after I had posted it on Internet, but missed the point altogether. He titled his work Marakana and his trash an’t worth mentioning for any other reason.
for born again serbs (around 80%) Christanity is synonym for another football team. Their former club was called Tito - Communist Party. They follow the global Eastern European pack and do not fall for the spiritual side of it, but for symbolism. It is tasteless speaking the truth here, even dangerous, as I am often verbally summoned to the asylum by the "public opinion leaders" (one [she] I am thinking of was a guest star on Studio B tv channel today) who cannot believe someone is publicly invoking Christ and criticizing the Jews. "Asylum, let's put them in check and where they belong" they are crying out loud, these global poltroons, although I am the best global player around here. Their peers, the masked atheists in power manipulate the Christian flock by turning them almost into hooligans; to pick on and go after me. For example, two cops were making man made noises today in their squad car (Kumodraska str) as I was passing by as if they were loudly typing something at 129 dB. Their stupidity made me laugh. Surely, I'll continue “typing” my way through these smoky piles of scum. Serb Machiavellianism wants to join European Union touching me by its poltroonic arm. In just half an hour I went out to do some hospital chores, I have seen their frenziedness here today (may 25th, Comrade Tito's Birthday) as someone obviously misinterpreted my writings to them. All in all, these Serbian mamboing and jumboing in the case of me is only toning down the well-made point herewith (see below) unless the Serbs were actually in the background of the decision to destroy my family. Go through passages 1 and 2 below. This nonsense really messes up the focus. I NEVER CHEATED ON MY WIFE. WE WERE FORCEFULLY SEPARATED BY THE ARMED US GOVERNMENT AGENTS IN SEPTEMBER 2002. AS OF THEN I HEARD FROM THE EX ON SEVERAL OCCASIONS OBVIOUSLY BUMSTEERED BY OUR JEWISH SHE-LAWYER THAT I WAS NEVER GOING TO COME BACK AND THAT SHE HAS TO LET ME GO. I NEVER GAVE IT A DEEP THOUGHT, BUT LET MYSELF BE CARRIED DOWNSTREAM BY DEPRESSION. I HEARD NOW MY WIFE REMARRIED SINCE I CHEATED ON HER. THAT IS SIMPLY NOT TRUTH, OUR SEPARATION WAS NOT A CLEAN BREAK. ONCE WE WERE MARRIED I THOUGHT IT WAS FOR LIFE UNTIL THE BASTARDS USED FEDERAL FORCE. THEIR INTENT WAS TO CREATE THE PROBLEM AND THEY DID IT WITH PERFECTION. NOW I HAVE TO PUT UP WITH IT, HOWEVER, NOT WITHOUT THIS STATEMENT WHICH NATURALLY WOULD NOT BE IN EVERYDAY AGENDA OF ANY UNTOUCHED NORMAL HUMAN BEING. IN MY OPINION, THERE WERE NO GROUNDS FOR US TO BE SEPARATED WHICH RUINED OUR FAMILY UNLESS THE JEWS HAD THOUGHT I WAS JESUS. FOR THE nth TIME, IT WAS DONE THROUGH THE POWER OF JEWISH JUDGE WHO MADE THE DECISION, AND POSSIBLY ON THE FALSE INFORMATION HE WAS PROVIDED BY FEDERAL AGENTS WHO WERE CATHOLICS (?) AND YUGOSLAV(SERBIAN, CROATIAN, BOSNIAN, ALBANIAN) SECRET AGENCIES AND THEIR CRONIES ACTING IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA. I WOULD HAVE STAYED WITH MY WIFE TO "LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER". NOW I HAVE GRUDGE AGAINST ALL THOSE WHO ARE BY ANY MEANS RELATED TO \THOSE THAT WRECKED MY FUTURE (WHICH IS MY PRESENT AND WAS MY PAST) WHICH I BELIEVE IS NORMAL (TALKING CHESSY NOW). everybody knew and I have found out just now several years later. my ex-wife is happily married and my child has got a new father. all these years (8+) i lived with mixed emotions thinking that my ex-wife is some sort of the holy nun just going to work and not minding other men as she told me numerous times, in fact she was hiding it from me. and i never went on to pursue other relationship or our separation was a deal breaker in the early stages of some tries. alas, we were forcefully separated. i spent over 8 years in the dark. man! my best years (!), i could have done many things in those years. i was simply blocked out. i am sorry i even speak english, this damned language, i am sorry i am writing this stinky shit at this terrible blog like i had chosen my own destiny. but this blog was what kept me from blowing from inside. i dearly loved her. they separated us all of a sudden without explanation and set up the stage for some jerry springer show; i know the guy she married. (jewish revenge it is, i wrote about how i disliked this fuck's shows while i was married - a big mistake) then again, they did other things i would rather not talk about in the prison trying to show me what they had prepared for me and how the mosaic is going to be completed. now it all makes more sense. it is more than a conspiracy. i do not know what it is, and what was the real purpose. i am not jesus christ if the jews thought so and wanted to humiliate me before it was too late. so what now. to revenge is human. since all those that were doing this ultimate injustice to me were either jews or catholics, do i want that all of the jews in the world and roman catholics die. no. do not even wish anything bad happens to the jewish judge charles m. honeyman and those that were in the center of my misfortune - ordering things. not so because i am not human but because i do not want to be brought up or down to their level where such vicious things originate in minds as they happened to me. two weeks ago i stumbled across the website that a jew-turned-christian priest wrote about this people and what they are about and able to. thinking about my situation, which is simply unbeliavable it is not a surprise. they are hellbound masters of fate and vow to those who stand in their way. they are hellbound masters of fate and vow to those who stand in their way.

Finally, I am relieved that J. and C. have finally sealed my fate and theirs; dii irati pedes lanatos habent . Finally something certain and definite after almost nine years of awaiting for a miracle. This concoction was made possible and set up with the help of some "Yugoslav" monsters there; I can count up to 20 names but won't... lento enim gradu ad vindictam sui divina procedit ira, tarditatemque supplicii gravitate compensat